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10:40 PM

i dun wan to go dentention and i really pray i dun...my points are accumulating and that's bad, i'm trying my best to obey the rules but i always forget and end up getting booked...today mrs cheong like came up to me and was like asking me y i was booked for my fingernails twice...i was like hahxx oops....but i mean everytime when i receive warning to cut my fingernails, i always forget so i get booked the next day... sigh i guess i must try harder.I'M TRYING...i heeard like for detention they either wash toilets or pull weeds??or smth?

i hope it doesn't count last year, coz last year was bad, coz my stupid phone got confiscated coz i accidentally used my phone on the 4th level, i didn't noe that we can get booked for that, and i was booked in the end by a prefect, so i had to go without my phone for a term!! it was miserable as i had to use this old lousy old model nokia phone which has a cover that was like breaking....hahx

everyday, i dunno wad's ahead of me, i'm stuck and trapped with choices and i can't make up my mind...i want to trust the Lord fully but i tend to get influenced and end up thinking like "what happens if i dun choose that?" in fact now, i'm feeling pressured there are like so many things going on, life seems to be passing and going and i still fell the same...

the only time of the day i enjoy is like during recess whereby can gossip with friends hahs and late at night whereby i'm kind of active yea hahx but the rest of the day seems very draggy and i dunno lahs...maybe if i choose the other choice i mite be happier, but it can also be a bad choice if i can't cope...

maybe i need a holiday. i want too but it's impossible.still have like months to wait.

if anyone out there is feeling the same as i m, this song is for you...

*Show me the meaning of being lonely*

So many words for the broken heart
It’s hard to see in a crimson love
So hard to breathe
Walk with me, and maybe
Nights of light so soon become
Wild and free I could feel the sun
Your every wish will be done
They tell me...

Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with
Tell me why I can’t be there where you are
There’s something missing in my heart

Life goes on as it never ends
Eyes of stone observe the trends
They never say forever gaze
Guilty roads to an endless love
There’s no control
Are you with me now
Your every wish will be done
They tell me

Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with
Tell me why I can’t be there where you are
There’s something missing in my heart

There’s nowhere to run
I have no place to go
Surrender my heart, body and soul
How can it be you’re asking me to feel the things you never show

You are missing in my heart
Tell me why I can’t be there where you are

Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with
Tell me why I can’t be there where you are
There’s something missing in my heart

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plastered.heart.BREAKS.

you are the soundtrack of my summer♥